Storytime! I’ve been trying to write this post for probably two months. I have learned how to surrender to God and let go (not saying it’s easy or that I can truly let go for good every time I try), but putting into words how to consciously do it when you feel like you might have other choices has turned out to be pretty challenging. “I can handle this!” says the ego.
With some of the career decisions I’ve been struggling with, I kept thinking I was surrendering. I even went out of my way to tell people I’d surrendered. I even told God something along the lines of, “Okay, I’m surrendering. Tell me what to do now so I can go do it and get this show on the road.”
In reality, I was still trying to control too much. Thinking too hard. Trying to see too far into the future and control/resist the situation instead of obeying what I felt like I was hearing. Finally, finally, something got through to me in a video I was watching online the other day (totally didn’t see it coming). I knew I had to check my ego, surrender, and just see where things go from here.